Regret-Moving On

Regret.

We all have it. Whether we choose to acknowledge it or not, we do. There are many a things we can regret in life. Personally for me, I regret decisions I have made. Or choices I have made. I never knew how much my heart would ache for a baby, until I was told I couldn't have one. I never knew how much I would regret something I did when I was a teenager. I never knew how much I would regret even simple things that I could have done differently.

There are so many things in my life that I think about and say to myself, "If only I could have that moment back. I would make a different choice. I would have responded differently. I would have thought more about the long term outcome, instead of what felt good at that moment." There are a million other thoughts that go through my head, but those are the main ones, and often the biggest lies from the deceiver. Satan wants me to believe that all the things I regret are things that make me a bad person, or make me unlovable. He is really good at that.

This past weekend I went back to BG for two of my closest friend's wedding. Brittany and Andrew were married this past Saturday. It was so great to be back and get to spend the weekend with some of the people that I have shared the last four years of my life with. It was wonderful to laugh with them and joke around, and even cry with them..hey, who doesn't cry at a wedding? But at the same time, it was equally hard to be challenged by them in the hard things in life. Some of my best and closest friends are in BG and they are most often the people I go to when I need someone to ask me the tough questions.

I am realizing that while regret is something that I will always have in my life, I also need to not let Satan trick me into believing that I can't overcome that regret, and move past by bad decisions and become better than the mistakes that I've made. I realize that the only reason that I can't be better than my past and my regrets is if I am choosing not to believe that God has forgiven me, and can make good out of those regrets and my past. I also have to choose to not allow myself not to be defined by the regrets and mistakes of my past.

Regret.

We all have it. How do you let it define you? Help me change my regret into learning experiences and help me to find Him in all my regret and mistakes. I am trusting God to show me the beauty in my mistakes and my regret.